This forgiveness and truth kick that I have been on has sent me on a path to discovery. I began to think about what my truth is and where I need to forgive. There were at lot of things that I let go of this past month or so. In doing so, I found some faith. I found faith in myself and my partner, courage and one more thing that has been lacking for quite some time - confidence.
There was a significant conversation that happened last night. A spontaneous pre-dinner discussion turned into a life altering moment. The MC could tell something was on my mind (I'm not exactly transparent) and he prodded me to let my guard down and trust him. The thing is, I do trust him and who else should I share my feelings with? He deserved to know what was so important to me, because he is important to me. I blurted it out (uh oh) Oh, that so was not the way I wanted to say it. Did I make any sense when those words came out of my mouth?
Then I was left with bracing myself for the response. To be fair, I started the conversation with 'don't freak out'. (What a way to make a person not freak out, right?) While I didn't know what to expect, the result was much different than I planned on. We sat there with joyful tears in our eyes and talked about where we go from here. The answer to where we go is that we are moving ahead. Our lives have changed and so have we, so it is time for us to move ahead with our lives. The pace is ours to set, not anyone else's.
My trek for grace and his trek for change have brought us to a definite confluence in our flow. The past has been washed away and we are forging this future together.
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