So this writey/thinky thing I do here is gaining some popularity. A few of my readers weren't necessarily welcomed here, but honestly I don't care if they read or not. If people who don't like me choose to read what I write, then have a good hard look folks - I am going to keep giving you plenty to see. This has never been and will never be a blog about slamming specific individuals, chastising people pointedly or holding myself above others. Don't like it? Don't read it. Why read or view something only to piss yourself off? That is a logic fail there...not that I take anybody who would do something like that as a person with an overwhelming sense of logic. I write for me and me alone.
Back to the subject at hand (Snoop Lion) This is a post about crying.
A few short weeks ago, my youngest asked me if I ever cried. That question took me back a bit. That is a child who has never seen her mother visibly upset. Mind you, she is five and a half years old. I am emotionally even keeled for the most part. My thoughts are that everything is temporary unless I choose to make it permanent. Or 'this too shall pass'. Ironically enough, she got to see me cry a few short days later. I reached a breaking point emotionally. A friend passed, another friend's mother was diagnosed with cancer, I was personally having trouble with my illness at the time (still am) and our wedding date had just been moved. Only one of those was a happy event. I got caught up in everything that was going on and I wept openly in front of my children. That is not something I am proud of, but I also do not regret it. In that case, it was ok to let my children know that I was sad because someone died. To me, that is an acceptable reason to cry.
Children should see their parents as strong and stable, that is exactly what mine view me as. While I am loving, concerned, helpful, fun, supportive - I fail to show my children when I have a weakness because I do not want them to be afraid, right down to hiding as much of my disease from them as possible. I also do not want to show them that it is ok to be overly emotionally invested in everything (aka a drama queen). We all cry, we all need that release sometimes. That release should not be our children's burden to bear though. Often times that frightens children because crying is a clue that something is wrong.
People cry for a multitude of reasons: sadness, happiness, being hurt, being upset, being overwhelmed or for those that do not have their their emotions in balance it is their gut check response to anything that they do not like. I am all for using the release of crying where it is warranted. What really bothers me is when people use crying for someone to feel sorry for them or to get their way. That is manipulation through pity. It is a disgusting and immature trait. You want pity? Look elsewhere. If you want to pout and throw a temper tantrum, take that elsewhere too. My gut check response when anyone acts like that is to walk away and ignore the bad behavior. Cry to try and get sympathy or pity from me and I am likely to hit you with some truth so extreme that it will make you cry. Crying doesn't get you out of trouble and if it does, that is temporary because most people do not react that way. It makes people angry when they are manipulated. That is an unspoken way of telling them they are a fool and a sucker. Make someone else out to be the fool and you will be the one looking foolish. That is the universal law of returns.
If you need to cry, let it out. If you need to release, let it go. If you need pity and sympathy - get over yourself.
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